December 7, 2010 – Psalm 143

“Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground”  (Psalm 143:9-11).

Psalm 143 takes me back to a time when I was about 16 years old.  I grew up in church and went to church every time the doors were opened.  Though I loved God, I  felt that church inhibited my social life in school.  This particular night was a Lenten service and I was just plain ol’ sick of attending church.  I fought with my parents and even told them I hated God.  I went to my room, took my Bible and stomped on it over and over with tears in my eyes.  My argument failed and I still had to go to church.

That evening was different than the previous weeks.  For whatever reason, we read a Scripture corporately before entering the sanctuary.  This was highly unusual because I do not remember reading Scripture at ALL growing up Lutheran.  Everything was in the hymnal or pre-printed.  So, reading an actual Scripture (pre-printed though it was) was different.

As I read through Psalm 143, I really began to cry.  The words “answer me quickly, LORD, my spirit fails” were nothing but the truth at that time.  “Rescue me from my enemies” also seemed to fit the suffering I  believed was happening in my teen life.   I clung to “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love for I have put my trust in you”. The morning did bring a surprise, but even that ended too soon.

Psalm 143, however, became THE Psalm in which I knew God was talking to me or at least hearing my cry for help.  Thirty-six years later, I see how He did answer my cry – not the cry of a teenager whose world was built on social and emotional foundations, but the cry that person whom the Father knew was crying inside of my spiritual being desiring to be set free.

For the past 30 plus years, God has been teaching me His incredible will through His Word and His Spirit has been leading me on not only level ground, but firm and stable ground.  He has taken my life from a pit of deception and given me an incredible life in Him.  I have learned about His goodness through the preservation of my life in times of serious illness and miscarriages.  I have witnessed Him silence not only my enemies, but also THE enemy that endangered my life and the lives of my children.    I have come to know His unfailing love in so many circumstances that seemed to make no sense, but had great purpose.   Today, I read Psalm 143 with victory and assurance of my faith, hope, and love in Yeshua, my salvation.

“I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done.  I spread out my hands to you …” (Psalm 143:5-6).

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